Another one!

Time has past by, and the time that has gone is never going to come back. Right now i am feeling all the pain that i should feel in this whole world. The people whom you call your close friends are not there any more. There is no one around to understand your thoughts or feelings. I thought he best thing that i would have would be to be in a relationship, now i know thats the worst. I just want to be in a deep relationship and it just seems that there is no at all. After breaking up with k, i spend many a lonely nights thinking about her. now too i am doing the same fucking thing. Things still remain the same. I just want her back in my life. what the hell should i do? I tried talking to her, convincing her, but there is no way two ways about her. she is very adamant. the freaking thing about the fairer sex is, they seem to get a relationship whenever they want, and they can get out of a relationship whenever they feel like.

When it comes to k, the memories are ever lasting. I just wish she was with me, so that i can hold her in my arms and feel her. Nothing, i tell you; Nothing can descrbe how i feel right now.

FUCK YOU !!!!


(blogger really needs to capitalise the next word after a "full stop")

some random thoughts

Hello All,

It s been a long time since I Have blogged. But I am forced to do it today. Lots of changes have happened in my life right from the passing away of a beloved family member. Some of you may know ho, others may not. Lets keep it that way because; I some times do feel that he is looking out for us from wherever he is.

Life has given me lots of twists and turns and I have had about enough, I am sick and tired of all that has been happening around me. Life as I see it, has seized to exist for me.

After the incident in November, I was forced to quit my job in Bangalore and then move down to cochin. K thought she got what she wanted, after all she said that, “it doesn’t matter if we fight, even if we fight, we did still be together” she did not know half of what was gonna happen. I must admit its my fault, because my temper is too much and at times, I feel that even I wont be able to handle that kind of blasting. I am beginning to think that I need professional help for y condition. I guess that’s the starting of the so called break up.

Lets start chronologically.

By around dec 20^th, I went back to Bangalore after around 3 weeks stay in cochin, i quit my job, came down to cochin. When I reached here, there was no job, no friends, nobody. I felt miserable. The only consoling factor was that K was here in her own words “appu, find a job in cochin, so that we can be together, I know we will be fighting, at least while fighting we did still be together.”

Ha, that was partly wrong. Partly? Yup. She was correct about the fighting part, but she was wrong about the staying together part. We fought, we fought a lot and then we broke up. One night on march 3^rd week, we fought, we broke up and slept on it. I called her the next day to apologise, only to hear from her, “I am sorry, its over between us” . and the worse part was she meant it this time.

On march 25^th, I got a job in SGS as a senior trainer, It was great, a new job, a promotion, a pay hike, I couldn’t ask for anything else. I called up K and informed her, she told me that she did not like my job, and she wanted me to do something else, other than in call centres, she did not think about anything else, I wanted a job to keep me occupied from that was happening around me, and I needed some new faces, a job to do each day, and a decent pay so that I can atleast feel better in the misery that I was in.

After some time, she agreed, she understood about it. She accepted it, just because I wanted her to, and that was fine with me. But that was just the beginning. Soon, we started going out again, to place we have never been to, taking rides and stuff.

All is well now i hope, and i think i should be able to mange myself. but lets see. i hope things turn out for the best. :)

Good bye for now

Bought a bike !

Hi all,

so, i have now bought a bike. the bike as bought on april 22nd and is now 5 weeks old. the bike is good so far, and has 1524km on its odo. not bad, i guess. :)

and yes today i bought a new phone. The Sony Ericsson K750i , I must say that the pone is pretty nice. i just love it.

Today i got a bit of free time at work to catch up on things.

signing off,

june 5th , 1220 hours. (boy ! how time flies.)

At Last

well at last after days of trying to get my blog to work, finally it worked. Apparently i have two accounts onw whihc i dont use and other which i use, and i was nmot able to add or create a pst in one account beacause that one was a dummy account, and today i found the correct user name and password for the good blog... Phew! Talk about tough luck. Well expect more blogging soon. :)

Intro to the reason for this blog.

hello all,

Welcome to my blog. Its been a long time that i have decided to create one. This blog contains parts of the thoughts whihc i may have from time to time, agreed that the thoughts may some time be stupid, if not utter nonsense. I hope this will turn into a meaningful blog that i can go about it. I hope i can turn back on this blog and feel proud.